Caught beneath the landslide;

1st August 2010

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Thoughts of 2 am.

I do most of my thinking at odd hours of the night.
Like right now, I’m thinking about how beautiful and flawless some people are. I wish I could be beautiful and flawless like that… But, it’s just not happening.

Like, there’s this person that I’m talking to. And his ex girlfriend is BEAUTIFUL, I mean gorgeous beyond compare. & That scares me.

I’m afraid that I’ll never live up to her. And, I don’t want to try too hard, and lose him. But, whatever… I keep telling myself the same thing over and over:

Whatever happens, happens. 

31st July 2010

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Mistakes.

Okay, so one thing I’ve never understood is why he didn’t give me a second chance. I mean, I made one mistake. One. And he let his whole world revolve around it… Okay, so it was a HUGE mistake, but people make mistakes everyday. It’s a normal process as we travel throughout life. We make mistakes and we learn from them. But, for some reason he just couldn’t understand that. He wouldn’t listen to me when I tried to tell him that people change. 
He was the love of my life, and still is… And probably always will be. But, I guess I can’t change the past. I also can’t make his mind up for him. It is what it is, and if it’s meant to be, it will find a way. So, maybe one day it will all work out. 

One day.